Living Without Lifelines
Nov 4th, 2015 – My wife woke me up with her water break news and I was half sleepy half confused. Expected delivery date was 15th Nov. It took me some minutes to understand what was happening and I started packing bag for hospital. Luckily we had a checklist. Soon Sneha started getting contractions, Mild with longer gap. Nothing to hurry as of now – I said to myself. We immediately called our gynecologist and informed the situation. We waited till 5PM. Contractions were stronger and more frequent now. We left for Hospital at 5:15 PM. Dr Vijaya did all required checkups and advised to go home and come back when contractions are stronger and more frequent.
Nov 5th, 2015 – By 3 AM contractions were very strong and couple of minutes apart. We called Dr Vijaya and she advised to come. I and Sneha were patiently waiting for the time. Sneha was continuously doing some exercises, walking and deep breathing and I was doing all my best to keep us calm and composed.
Finally I saw my second lifeline coming to this world at 2:35 PM. That feeling was amazing and can’t be described in words. I felt like heaven when she first looked at me. I felt proud when I first touched her. I felt like luckiest person on earth when I first took her in my hands. I was continuously looking at her. It was truly unbelievable feeling to touch her tiny fingers, passing kisses, and long hugs.
Mihu turned a year old few days back. She is now in Kanpur with Sneha at her maternal grandmother place. And I am here in Hyderabad, missing both of them badly and remembering every single moment of last one year. Many images flashing in front of my eyes. Few are cute, few are beautiful and few of them are even more beautiful. How we used to get excited when you smiled while sleeping. How I used to tell Sneha everytime you smiled at my action. How proud we felt when you rolled for the first time. How I blushed with excitement when you gripped my finger with your tiny ones. All those stupid faces and sounds that I used to make to see you laugh. When you first crawled. When you got down from bed on your own for the very first time. That excitement while shopping for you. Happiness while drying your small cute cloths after wash. Those late night play and laugh sessions are magical.
Mihu beta – I wish I could tell you how proud I feel when you make pa-pa sound. How hard it is to leave for office when you smile at me standing at door. How awesome I feel when you run after me when I come from office.
Couple of more days and I will be with both of my lifelines and I bet these two days are probably longest days ever. Life seems boring and useless without both of you. Nothing is exciting. Nothing is fun. Thank god I have all those pictures and videos of those precious moments that make me smile and pass these lonely days.
Love you Mihu! Love you Sneha! Can’t wait to be with both of you.